Tried that method tonight to get to sleep, I think I’m going back to being busy and productive until I pass out.

One hour of crying and three journal pages later, and I still can’t sleep.

My biggest problem on my mind? My younger 20 year old sister is engaged to a guy she’s known for 3 months. While I’ve been dating my Guy for what is now approaching 3 years and I know he isn’t going to be proposing anytime soon, and I wish with every inch of my heart that he would. Why does that have to hurt so much?

Don’t get me wrong I’m happy for my sister and all, I just wish I hadn’t wanted to get married since I was 8, and that I hadn’t spent the better part of this last year hoping for a sign of a proposal from Guy.